not bad... 3As for my H2s - that is A for PCM c: super super super happy. I feel now like i have some stability in my future and i'm super thankful for all my science teachers. i really really need to thank them properly some day. teacher's day maybe. or some time earlier if i have the time. i'll make cards. using some photos!! that's a good idea. should get to it soon.

need to figure out what to take first. hmm...

haha had guard duty this week in camp. 4h rest, 2h duty, then 4h rest and another 2h duty. Super boring hahahaha.

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heyyyyyaaaallll i tio retraining siaaaan

1st day: anxiety... awkward meeting new people but you know, it will get better.

bump your head on the top bunk for the first time; you suddenly remember you have no hair left hahahha

listen to sergeant laugh and joke with each other and occassionally with the platoon. and you realise, they aren't much older, but have seen much more. i want to see as much xD

while running i catch a glimpse of the ocean, and it suddenly strikes me that i'm on a completely different island from most of my friends. :/ feels a bit glum.

makan time :D eat with platoon and i become aware that i begin to have good friends on the island with me as well.

a few days later, i bump my head on the top bunk again. hahaha. eh? not so pain. my hair growing back out lol. days pass quickly.

makan time again; see friends i haven't seen for a long time. c: i'm here with old friends after all!

sub 10 for 2.4!!!

i'm not certain. just an uneasy feeling again :|

ns in a few days? maybe. baaaah.

There's a whole list of things i haven't yet got to do that i said i wanted to do before ns, yet there's also a whole list that i've been able to do as well. and another list that i never expected to do, but am grateful that i did. overall - not bad i guess. i would say time well spent.

all my relatives say i very guai c: but too quiet. (i guess in contrast to how i was when i was smaller?) what's wrong with quiet? I don't think i know anything other than quiet among my relatives, heck even among friends i seldom speak up. meh i don't know how to deal with this. i think i'll figure it out later.

Haha reminds me of the time a friend caught me talking to myself during potluck. awkwaaard. to reconcile the situation i said, "... aaand yeah i'm talking to myself," then i walked away. lol. didn't help. i talk to myself cos it helps me think, sue me.

siiigh. Mr. Tan said that i haven't changed since sec1 hahaha. not sure what to make of it. he wasn't specific on whether he meant in terms of appearance or demeanor. Appearance - i don't care much for it. but personality wise, :/ i hope i've made some improvements (don't think he can judge because of limited interaction recently) but you know, the words affect me.

I know... same theme as many other posts, but this is what i'm struggling with now haha. i look at some of my seniors and they've gone far beyond where i ever expect myself to be. Envious ah. :/ When am i going to be more personable, more passionate?! lol angst.

k signing off. booking in.