Srsly I think I have anger issues. I haven't even been accepted into a school and I hate a teacher in it. Stoopid *ing *tard. Hope he dies a terrible death. A slow painful one. Hahaha *hole.

*ing idddioooottttt had me take his *ing nonsense surprise test thing. I was NEVER MEANT THINK ON MY FEET. Some people can only think sitting down and writing for a minute or two. I totally crashed and burned under pressure. Or my head imploded rather, you know under pressure and all. I'm not like those nutjobs who can think on the spot. Bluddy hell, I collapse under stress. *ing *tard *hole keeps talking like there's some special list that I'll get on if I pass the *ing imaginary bull* test. Bluddy arse.

Then there's this stupid guard who said, "I don't want to be a wet blanket but..." and goes on to be a *ing wet blanket. I'm getting this feeling that people around me just have this urge to pwn me for no reason. Maybe it's my face.

I hate it how I didn't work hard enough for Olevels, then now I need to go through all this trouble for something I won't necessarily get. And how luck seems to mess with me all the time. My PC just HAD to explode when I needed all the stuff in it and the Media Lab's server and internet just HAD to stop working when I need the photos from the past 2 years or so. FFCKKK! STUPID PRINTER HAS TO BREAK DOWN WHEN I NMEED IT AND DAD REFUSES TO BUY ORIGINAL INK FOR WORKING PRINTER. Where does that leave me? In NYJ that's where. FCK.

Title pretty much says it all. Going to get my appeal stuff now. Landed in NYJ, seeing if I can walk to SAJ or AJ. Expected result. Lol.

Again, it's the eve of something very important.

And so I have trouble sleeping.

Uhh, edit later my mom's coming up. STEALTH MODE!

I'm BORED!
I'm so bored, I'm even considering reading up on subjects next year!

Considering lol. I'll go look for stationaries first. Which are the few things I actually like buying, it's an awesome feeling to have a nice neat set of pens and pencils. Maybe even symmetrical.

Man, typing on "my" PSP is a pain in the balsamic vinegar.

I'm BORED!
I'm so bored, I'm even considering reading up on subjects next year!

Considering lol. I'll go look for stationaries first. Which are the few things I actually like buying, it's an awesome feeling to have a nice neat set of pens and pencils. Maybe even symmetrical.

Man, typing on "my" PSP is a pain in the balsamic vinegar.

I'm BORED!
I'm so bored, I'm even considering reading up on subjects next year!

Considering lol. I'll go look for stationaries first. Which are the few things I actually like buying, it's an awesome feeling to have a nice neat set of pens and pencils. Maybe even symmetrical.

Man, typing on "my" PSP is a pain in the balsamic vinegar.

I'm BORED!
I'm so bored, I'm even considering reading up on subjects next year!

Considering lol. I'll go look for stationaries first. Which are the few things I actually like buying, it's an awesome feeling to have a nice neat set of pens and pencils. Maybe even symmetrical.

Man, typing on "my" PSP is a pain in the balsamic vinegar.

i would like to say that this 1.245+++ metre paper pillar represents all the lows and pains that i encountered in the last four years. That is, i would like to. But in truth it just shows my lack of organization and discipline.

Not in the next 2 years though.

Goals:
thick colour coded ring folders for each subject.
6As for A levels.
enjoy studying process.
study my freakin assets off.
exercise when bored. (badminton , cycling , CATCHING PLEASE.)
under radar(johnny nobody in new school.)

i added in 'enjoy the process' because i normally despise the chasing my dreams part. man typing on my phone is a pain.

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Simple pleasures, no fuss. All you need is a box and imagination! Watch Maru in slow mo too. I think my brain just asploded with cuteness in a cascade of tiny red hearts and cerebral fluids.

Wth man my parents keep saying that I look like I'm about to kill myself. Okay they didn't say that, but they did say that I've got a terrible outlook on people around me and life in general. That I'm a cynic. (SOUNDS FAMIILIAR?!) yeh dude I blogged about it before and meant it as a joke. I think I have an awesome outlook on life though. Seriously if not I wouldn't have even considered going to see complete strangers to beg for a place in a new JC. My writing contradicts my earlier statement.

But I do attest that I have been a little under the weather the past couple of days. Still shell shocked from results, JAE submission etc. Thank god I've got good friends who organised stuff to keep my mind from wandering. Ugh especially when I'm about to sleep and on the bus. Wtf man my mind is wandering now. AAHHHHHH PHUKET I'M SRSLY GONNA ACE MY A'S ARGHH! *BLEEEP*

Damien is no cynic, he's just bored.

Also, I just read Ziyad's blog where he introduced a Bon Jovi Song that you should really give a listen to. He's just awesome (Bon Jovi, not Ziyad).

FUNNY: This guy - don't know who though - came to my blog searching: "aep sucks damien". Lol why would ANYONE relate me to AEP sucking? AEP doesn't suck. It got me an A2 for my humanities! Of course, my other humanities subject got A2 as well...

*RUDEGESTURE FOR THE HECK OF IT!* I BET YOU FEEL INSULTED! HAHAHAHA.

Hmm I keep seeing someone walking downstairs from the corner of my eye. Then I turn to look and no one is there. I need to get some sleep fast.

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Yeah, my blogging frequency goes up whenever I'm frustrated or stressed out. It helps to know that you're not burdening anyone in particular with your worries, and just broadcasting to the general reading community (2-3 people) to make myself feel a little better.

Yeahhhhh well. Sucks to not do well. Let me share my solo-self-advertising experience. First was SAJ. I went in to the GO to see if I could meet the principal. My heart was thumping so quickly, I'm pretty sure I felt it cramp up a little. And the clerk blew me off with a very steenky face. The principal was "busy, very busy" *no eye contact*. Battle hardened, I went on to look for the teacher-in-charge of the photographic society armed with my arsenal of pictures and school publications that I have contributed to. I met up with the teacher in charge and went on to advertise myself. Then she cut me off halfway through my rehearsed introduction and said she couldn't help me. Man, was that disheartening. Suddenly she decided to take a look at my portfolio when she said she couldn't help. She spoke to me about the ways I could try to get into the school and reemphasized how she was unable to guarantee a space for me in the school.

AJ was no different. The teachers simply can't do anything until the results are out. And they always try to sound as nice as possible. I really cannot decipher what message their trying to convey. On one hand they say they can't help. On the other, their asking for your contact and noting down your name. How the hell am I supposed to make a decision? WTHF. Wish they would just give it to me straight. Like, "Don't put us as your first choice because you most probably won't get in." Yeah duh, teacher's are supposed to promote their school. But I really don't understand why they have to be so... undecided. Makes me undecided too. Agh the damage has been done. Form submitted. Yay me. Had something else to say but forgot.

Head hurts, wrists hurt, calves hurt, raw wound hurts, elbow hurts, neck hurts, eyes hurt, quality time with friends (in and out of the house) totally worth it! Disappointed that we won't be seeing each other too often for much longer.

AGHHH I'M SO PISSED. SHOULD HAVE STUDIED HARDER. AHHHHHH. !@#!@$!@$!@$%!@#@!

Even though the jeans I was wearing kept rubbing against my raw wound. And of course, it was a little depressing being rejected from two schools. I also had to wear an uncomfortable collared shirt. I also had to talk to people I didn't know. And I lied twice, something Venice's leaders would have done too haha. Well technically I lied once, but lying the first time made the previous statement a lie too hahaha. And yeah, packing up and leaving is more difficult than talking to the teachers. I couldn't really sleep last night because I was rehearsing what I was going to tell the teachers when I got there. The principal of SAJ didn't want to see me so that kinda sucked.

BUUUUTTT I didn't get caught in the rain so yay me. Got to meet a couple of friends along the way. They seem satisfied of going to MJ (maht junior)? Today was awesome!11!1
Positive energy: -3

I THINK NOT! Starts with a 9. 8 numbers altogether? 0 at the end?! OMG! It's a phone number! OR ISIT? And if it does happen to be a phone number, whose might it be? Hmmmmm. I wonder. You should try calling it. Or...

No harm right? Lol. Today is the first day I killed someone in EVE! Woot. I was actually supposed to reduce his shields to 0 and then ransom his really expensive ship, but my comp lagged and when it unfroze, his ship was already in smithereens (YARRRR I feel like a pirate! BLOWN TA SMITHEREEENS!)