Well, to be honest, everything's going down. Remember the time I was talking about pillars of paper here and around my room? Yeah I found a very suitable name for them. The Pillars of Apathy. Because as I think less about important things, they just start growing and growing.

haha the state of my room kinda feels like the state of my blog now. and everything else I thought was important. like capital letter of the words at the beginning of every sentence hahaha. The super annoying advertisements are making the effect more pronounce, like it's been way too long since I weeded my garden or something.

So, promos results are sort of back. Looking at where I stood before, I actually jumped off "Rankings' Cliff" and currently, halfway down. Freefall feels good.

I'd like to say I totally did it on purpose and didn't work hard because I wanted to check and see if I could do well if i didn't work hard. But I can't, because complacency got the better of me and now my results aren't fantastic. Kinda feels bitter when people use you as a benchmark and celebrate because they overtook you. Sucks.

At least now I know that doing well in school means a crapload of hard work. And also at least for the first half of the year I already achieved some of my goals. I guess. I'm getting the feeling New Yorkers see me in a different light now. It's like that when I let myself go a little more.