SSSSSSSSIIIIIIGHHH (not the first time i started a post like this)

I'm not born to be a commander la. ahahaha I think back about all the times i was ever given a leadership position and i discover i was never the assertive type (way to go capt. obvious - or should i say, sct obvious xDDDD)

i recall how excited i was about ns before i went in. And now i feel completely opposite of how i felt then. sians. I get super angry that saf is taking all my time away from my family. okay maybe this anger isn't really justified cos i just got one extra duty on the weekend D:< but still. my sister just got back from uk, and it sucks how i may only be spending a few short weekends with her for the next year.

and also. my parents. lately i notice them graying quicker than before. I watch my mom and dad continue to slog on as they grow older and more tired. heart pain ah. Dad especially continues to head overseas to do maintenance jobs. Mom continues to maintain the house on top of her own full-time job.

The whole house is basically split up right now. Dad's immersed in work. Both my sisters are grappling with school. While I'm here stuck in camp. I want my house back!