I'll be honest. The past few months with her in sg (right after she flew back for her summer break) i got to know her so much better as compared to the time before she went to uk.
The first time she flew off i didn't really feel the same attachment to her as i do now. :c i wish she didn't have to go so soon.
Family is great! (#10)
9/9/11, 8:05 PM: AWESOME DAY (last meal sorta day)
let da pictures do the talking. Also, me. Today was family day for me! it was awesome. East coast cycling, and just being lazy at the beach with the seabreeze and everything, and also, my econs text :c (took me several tries getting that sadface out.
back to work c: Not pictured: sanity
9/8/11, 11:17 PM: Regular blogging is like talking to yourself aloud.
I've always been trying to reject little changes around me all this while even when i say that accepting new things is good i don't always have that mentality in application.
6 years ago i was in sec one and i was awkward around all the new people around me and i don't know why but there's this stress to be above everyone in my acads. Then four years later i make good friends with so many people and the pressure to do well isn't so... uh i can't find the word for it. harsh? isn't so apparent?
9/6/11, 10:44 PM: the universe conspires to nudge us in the right direction
Today was an interesting day and it deserves a song:
haha i used to like this song and i figured out today that i still do! DON'T JUDGE ME.
I thought about it, and i have concluded that change is inevitable.
like you know people sometimes say things like "ouhp waelll back to square 1." Technically though it shouldn't be square 1, but maybe something like square (0, 0, 0, 1) - x-axis, y-axis, z-axis and time-axis hahaha. If time is perpetually moving forward, square 1 shouldn't exist anymore if you think about it. So there's no particular situation that you can be in for any longer than a split second.
Another thing i've been thinking about is people's presence in time. Like what people regard as the "now" in the timeline that's somewhere in their mind's eye. I have a really narrow definition of "now". e.g. say this bracket with dotted lines in it represents my whole life from start to finish i.e. all the way till i don't exist anymore.
my perception of now which probably affects my urgency and tendency to be sentimental is would probably be represented on the timeline within sq. brackets something like this:
see it? no? lemme zoom in for you. burth(---------[-]------------------------------------/...ded
hahaha i'm saying that maybe i should be more forward looking and be more uneasy about my A's and not do stupid shi* like this. Also maybe a little more sentimental about what's gone on before.
