BY SENDING POINTLESS CHAIN SMSES. That waste your money/free sms per month or whatever. Yeah. Just a heads up you know. My phone is working now. Really. You can call me anytime you like.

I'm always available! Well, almost. Almost always. Except for weekday mornings. And at night. Not a 24 hour thing.

Yeah. I'd post my number up, but then I'm afraid someone will call me and then stalk me. Because I'm so popular. Not. HAHA.

Still waiting...

*stares at phone*

OH IT'S VIBRATING! Oh. Batteries.

No one does. It just doesn't make sense. Seriously, unless you've got a couple of weapon upgrades going. If not, no, absolutely no one kills Lao Shan Long with a freaking raw bow.

Haha, okay thanks friends. I'm feeling like a rebel and anti-establishement now. So:

What's making the most out of life, if we're all gonna die? I'm catholic, but I'm a really unfaithful one, and I more or less believe that when we die we probably won't have anything left of us, as in we won't have concious thought anymore. That means, we won't feel satisfaction, no regret, we feel nothing. What is making the most out of life? We just don't want to die because of that little bit in our brain telling us not to, instinct of survival? So I guess that's the only why we live. We live to stay alive. And reproduce.

And also I think that HSM3 stinks because it supposed to be a children's show and so much crap got out about the girl in the show and the starring guy in the show had some *woohoo* and pictures went online and i-can't-believe-disney-went-on-to-make-more-shows-of-them. Real names not used so sick people won't land in my blog. I'm sure Walt Disney would have stopped production. Stupid Roy Disney. I bet it's his fault. HAHA.

Yay Stepmania and DJmax rocks my undergarments.

EDIT: AFTERBATH!
YAY I'm naked and have no undiesssss. That sucks. I hate not having undies, it's rellly uncomfortable to walk around with my dangly bits swinging around. I wonder if the neighbours can see my dangly bits from here...
*waves*
Don't think so.

All the irrational wants of people on earth makes the world go round. People want to collect tiny bits of paper and plastic. That's irrational, isn't it? I mean in the end you die and it all doesn't matter anymore. But of course, it completely makes sense in different points of view.

Technically, everything materialistic in this world is totally pointless, because we're all gonna die anyway, and that is why people seek meaning in having to be present in this tangible space we call the universe. Well, since this is my blog and all, this is no longer going to be such a general thing, it's going to be a me thing.

My mom says I have a bad attitude towards life. I don't know, I think I need a psychiatrist. I just, don't want anything anymore. Not wanting anything just makes it so much easier to you know, live. The more you want, the more upsets and unhappiness you encounter, but also, the more you want to move forward. The more you want, the more you REALLY want. No, there's no typo there. I think maybe wanting makes a person improve himself. To overcome an obstacle to get to a goal, the "want". And of course, there's the right way of getting what you want, and the wrong way.

I suddenly don't feel like typing anymore, PSP time. May edit later.

This is by far the first picture I've taken this October. Okay, exclusive of the pictures I take for the school.

October's rain is so wonderful. Really, I mean it always sorta rains heavily when I'm inside, but when I'm outside, it either subsides to a soft drizzle, or stops completely. I love the smell after the rain, it's similar to the smell of dew in the morning. Don't know why. Doesn't everyone? I think I like it reminds me of what happened in the past few years, most of the memories especially vivid from this year.

I'm feeling a little moody now. I ticked off my mom yesterday and haven't spoken to her since. I was just being really childish lah. Come to think of it, this year is the year that I've ticked of my mom for the most number of times. This is also the year that many relationships between me and my seniors, or me and my teachers, broke. Now, I'm not exactly sure if they did or not, but I'm quite sure they did. Or maybe it's just my brain playing tricks on me.

What I do know, I shan't say, assumptions may hurt people. That's one thing I learned not to do, from my mom.

I still remember just last year, school was so much more of a homely place than anywhere else. I guess things change huh. It could just be me lah, I've changed, so my perception changes, I see things differently.

As much as I would LOVE to blame my bad grades on my CCA, I don't do much for it anyway, even though I'm constantly saying that I do, well, I don't, I procrastinate, a lot.

I'm going to try to not get too fat-headed when saying this, but teachers, friends and my parents seem to see potential in me. I honestly don't. Or is that just and excuse to not work so hard anymore.

Okay this post is getting to lengthy and whiney. And I need to bathe!

Lately, Damien has been staying till late to finish up the Victoriana which is already late.

Not playing DotA anymore. DotA stinks because I stink at it. I'm currently chionging my Monster Hunter Freedom 2 game! LUNASTRA HORNS HERE I COME!

Uh-huh, yeah. Didn't do well, AGAIN. This time I really didn't study. And I really regret that, seriously. I have a third of a mind to start studying now all the way till the Big One. The other 2 third is telling me what's over is over and now is the time to play.

PHY - B4
CHEM - B4
BIO - A2
AEP - C5?
EL - C5?
EM - C5?

Currently standing at 25 points, my L1R5 is looking horrible. If there was really a sort of Study Debt kind of thing going on, I'd probably be hitting my books now, but obviously it barely ever works that way. Psst. A maths, Chinese and Combined Humanities failed!

Great. Bad grades, bad hair, I'm on my way on becoming a hobo.

I haven't cut my hair for just over a month and it's freaking long already. Long enough to touch the back of my shirt if I bend my head backwards, and the fringe goes right over my eyes, WITHOUT TRYING! Sometimes I feel something about to happen, you know like a feeling of anticipation, but actually it's just my hair in my eyes.

I'd take a picture for you to see, but I don't have a proper camera!(excuses)

Crap I'm so bored. The holidays haven't even started yet. This is bad. I'm probably going to engage myself in stupid things again. Walk around the city maybe? Bring my blades along just in case. Come to think of it, this is just what my dad would do, I remember him asking the whole family to go on a road trip with him around Singapore. Doesn't sound like much, but it's fun, if you just take it slow, even with no particular motive in mind.

Especially so if you head out in the morning, from like 9 to 11? Or maybe I can go to the beach. Or maybe not, it's really crowded during the holiday periods.

Oh yah, there's that chinese 'O' level examination. Wah lao. I cannot make it one lah. I wish learning chinese was as easy as flipping a switch.

Yeah and the more I look at this blog the more i don't really like it. TO THE DRAWING BOARD!

THIS JUST IN.
"Becaus' ah've gut pepples, arund meh, and dey ahr kritik-syzin mah effrey muv. Sou ah kernot luk uhr eppear efflected, und I kernot beh dooin anithun stoopits. Wich mens I kernot du anithin'."

Haha Azmi requested that I blogged about something about the "GNARLEHH" thing. Lol not SOOOO funny lah, just that we found another word to severely over-use. Okay fine it's quite - AHH! CHOCOLATE IN MY EYE!

I mean it's quite funny lah. Yah then another thing, was just talking about AEP stuff with Aidil the other day and then,

/\\ || |)) || ||_: im a slacker wif a capital S!!!!
Damien: I thought slacker was spelt with a C
/\\ || |)) || ||_: no, tts for watermelon
Damien: emm, I cee.
/\\ || |)) || ||_: ci camien! cow care cou?
Damien: LOL.
Damien: I mean, COL!
Damien: Ci, Cidil! C'm Coing Cine!
/\\ || |)) || ||_: cou care cpastic
Damien: LOL
Damien: I mean, COL
Damien: so what the hell are you doing now?
/\\ || |)) || ||: desktop tower defence

IN OTHER NEWS. I walked in the drizzle today for at least 10 minutes to reach home. Now I think I'm about to catch a, ahh, AHcHHoOOld.

Also I'm considering making a flashy link unique to each person who has their name on the links column. Okay work hard attitude just left me. I don't feel like making flashy links anymore.

AND AZMI!

Fighting over for a word so we won't be posers is so 'in' nowadays maaanzz.

CONTRADICTORY!

It had cost him over 90 singdollars. OMG AND IT TASTES SO DIFFERENT! AND GOOD. It's solid chocolate outside with chocolate fondue-like inside. MOLTEN CHOCOLATE. I'm like bombarding myself with those killer chocolate drops now! OMG. I FEEL SO HYPER!

And the most boliao convo ever.

[18:7:58]azminho Say:
lol?
[18:8:3]azminho Say:
lol
[18:8:4]damien325 Say:
Lol.
[18:8:7]damien325 Say:
loL?
[18:8:15]damien325 Say:
loL looks cooler lah
[18:8:17]damien325 Say:
haha.
[18:8:18]azminho Say:
IoI?
[18:8:20]azminho Say:
ioi?
[18:8:24]damien325 Say:
IoI
[18:8:25]azminho Say:
IlIlIlIlIlI
[18:8:31]damien325 Say:
lIlIlI
[18:8:31]azminho Say:
IIIIIIIIIIIILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLIIIIIIIIIIIIllllllllllllllllllllll
[18:8:38]azminho Say:
IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIllllllllllllllllllllllllllllIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIllllllllllllllllllllllllllll
[18:8:43]damien325 Say:
IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIlllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII
[18:8:49]damien325 Say:
that's my L and i
[18:8:50]damien325 Say:
haha
[18:9:5]azminho Say:
lIlIlIlIlIllllllllllIlIlIlIlIlIlIlIlIlIlIllIlIlIlIlIlIlIlIlIllIlIlIlIlIlIllIlIl
[18:9:10]azminho Say:
LOi
[18:9:17]damien325 Say:
eh wanna play not?!
[18:9:19]azminho Say:
lOl
[18:9:20]damien325 Say:
LoL
[18:9:21]azminho Say:
LOl
[18:9:25]azminho Say:
lOL
[18:9:25]damien325 Say:
lOl
[18:9:29]azminho Say:
lOL
[18:9:32]damien325 Say:
lOL
[18:9:36]azminho Say:
k
[18:9:36]azminho Say:
k
[18:9:38]azminho Say:
i host
[18:9:39]damien325 Say:
kay.

I'm really bored, so I'm going to do a tutorial on how to make those flashy buttons on my sidebar!!! WOOHOO.

First of, I'll run you by the things you should need:

• ***EXCESS OF TIME. REALLY.
• ***PHOTOSHOP/ILLUSTRATOR/FLASH/GIMP(worse-case)
• ***IMAGINATION + ORIGINALITY(I'm a hypocrite. See the links.)

Okay so for starters, you open your Image manipulating software.
I highly recommend photoshop or flash, whichever you're comfortable with.

For now it's just a matter of designing your button. For a grungy sort of feel, you can do like what I did. Brushes, diagonal lines, brushes, erasing.

TIP#1. GRADIENTS. USE GRADIENTS. Because then when your button lights (you get a "WEEEEE" feeling) up it'll look more real because then there's a change in tone. More later.


Remember, don't use weird colours like red and blue together. Get a theme straight for your blog and work with shadows and highlights, like the darker parts and lighter parts of your button. Don't have too large a change in colour.
For this gradient I have only two stops, two different shades of yellow.

TIP#2&3. BORDERS and BRUSHES!


It'll be good that you add a border to your image, be it via styling in your HTML, or directly on the image itself.

BORDER/STROKE in Photoshop

Double Click Layer to stroke > Select Stroke from the Style list

For the links in my sidebar I used dry media brushes, and a combination of erasing and brushing. How you wish to decorate your link is to your own liking, but adhere to the colour scheme you have decided for your blog. Mine is yellow and black. Can see right?! HAHA.
Whatever the case, for Photoshop users, if you're going to doodle some stuff on your link button to beautify it, be sure to do it on a new layer, so if you screw up you can just delete the ruined layer and start on a new one.

NEWLAYER in Photoshop

WINDOWS: CTRL+SHIFT+N, then ENTER.
MAC: CMD+OPTN+N, then RETURN.

TIP#4. ADDITIONAL BACKGROUND STUFF, but remember, in many occasions, less is more.


If you're going to put any thing in the background in your link, try not to make the background elements to distracting, try to make them as inconspicuous as you can while still retaining the asthetic qualities. Again, whatever you want to add, do it on new layers.

The diagonal strips are done using a pen tool, stroked on with a basic brush, then cloned many times over with equal spacing.

Flash users will have to save images as GIF and PNG files, because only those files are able to contain transparency data, and also the file sizes are smaller, so as to ensure quicker loading on your blog or whatever.

Exporting images from flash

File > Export > Export Image...

Then a window should pop out asking you what you want to export the file as. Choose either PNG or GIF from the drop down menu at the bottom of the window. Then click Save

WAH THIS IS TAKING TOO LONG. I give up. HAHA. SEE YAH!

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This guy didn't study chem! This guy did his AEP prepwork ALL night long. Yeah and chem was kinda easy. I think lah. Or maybe it's just because that I think I that I'm correct when actually I'm not! Well, ignorance is bliss.

But AEP is different from chem in that you are able to see the final result and probably what grade you'll be getting as soon as you finish your final piece. Which is really demoralizing, but hey, it's the 2nd last exam for SA2! I'd post up the final piece but it wasn't allowed to leave the exam hall. Just image a LARGER, macro verson of the previous post, and the guy has a red mohawk, and the background is gone, only a bluish black cloudy sort of empty space. And the large welding arms are highlighted yellow such that the backmost parts of the machines can't be seen.

Aiyah if I get a good grade for that painting I'll post it up lah. HAHA. HAPPY HOLIDAYS PEOPLE. IN ADVANCE.

So far, this is what I've done for my AEP, I decided to give my neck a break and blog a bit, so here it is. Don't laugh.



Sucks badly I know, but it's rushed work, can't help it manzz.
I'll probably be hugging my knees and crying, if I don't finish by 10pm, then at 10.15pm I'll be playing DotA. Wish me luck!

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This song is so FUNKEY. Hooray exams are on the verge of ending. I already feel like celebrating! No more really stressful exams, apart from AEP of course, damn the 3 hour long exam. Okay all of a sudden I don't feel so secure because the part twos of each paper was set really easily (although I still didn't manage to do well for them) and I'm afraid that they will set the part ones of each paper really difficult just to prove a point, and then I'll be eating my words about saying that these papers were relatively non-stressful.

But then again if I'm lucky the papers won't be so difficult. HAHA! Wish me luck, especially those people who have already finished their exams who don't need a lot of luck at all.

Yeah and so I've been thinking, and I forgot who it was who told me to sit down and ask myself what exactly is it that I really, really want, and work to it. And of course, I nodded my head like everything was sinking in, but didn't actually reach me. Just a while ago (which was a long time after the person whoever it is told me), I've tried to think of what I really want, and I realized that I really didn't want anything, or I knew I want something but I just didn't know that I did yet, maybe until later. So as of now, I really don't know what I want, wants as in a happy family, or a well-paying job, or maybe just to slack-off at home with my mom until either of us die first. And then I came to a conclusion that, in order to not feel all depressed and teary before you die, one MUST fulfill his desires. So if you were told to die now but you don't want to, then you still have desires.

Okay here, beLIEve, here's your really lengthy, brainless post. I like the song.

The microphone system HAD to be faulty on the day I HAD to agree to be the announcer for the day. Assembly was held in the PARADE SQUARE. OPEN AIR. I had to shout the morning assembly commands to the entire school. Thank goodness there weren't any announcements. I imagine myself shouting announcements from the announcement list and I almost want to laugh, but then I remember it was me shouting and not somebody else. Former-Form Teacher Mr. Tan said that I looked very shocked, and that my mouth was wide open. I don't remember my mouth being opened thought, maybe unconciously having your mouth open is part and parcel of nearly wetting your pants from fear/anxiety/shock. What I do remember was that my knees were shakeing uncontrollably, really uncontrollably, while singing the national anthem. I asked Ziyad and Azmi if they could see my knees jerking back and forth like some nutcase who needs to pee, and they said that they didn't see my shakeing, and that I was cool! Or maybe it they said that seeing the whole school following the shouted commands was cool, but me being cool is nicer to remember.

SOVA paper you ask?! STUDY OF VISUAL ARTS MAN. It's the paper where your bullshitting skills are tested! I always manage to NOT do well for that dumb paper. Partly because as soon as the examination begins, the once organized(a little bit) thoughts in my brain just jumbles up, and I screw up any thing that needs planning, like the stupid Geog paper this morning.

Well, wish me luck, and NO MORE procrastination from now on! Hey? The taggy's not up yet.

Nahh.

In the middle of EOYs and blogging now. I have zero control over myself, absolutely no self discipline. Oh right, speaking of discipline, I just remembered I have to do that Media Club CCA photo thing. Crap. Who knows what else I might have forgotton. Good luck to all those who actually intend on doing well for this EOY, I intended but I'm starting to doubt my performance. Because I've been playing DotA since the start of the exams with Bing Yu and Azmi, what's odd is that so far the papers do not seem so difficult, of course with the exception of Chinese, yeah I'm still not doing well for that.

Right and my phone has just been sent for repair, I won't be able to be contacted for the next 3 to 4 days, and for those who own W760i series of walkman phones, you might want to go down to Sony Ericsson to update your firmware. It's much less laggy according the the guys down at the shop.

Again, good luck for EOYs.