took a peek at letters, birthday cards, notes, encouragements, photos inside my physical journal :D

One day i need to send letters to all the people who sent me letters.

"la shendelsdein" hahahaha dunnow why woke up this morning laughing at that phrase.

love it :D

life's kinda bland this week. hope for better weeks. rather, look forward to better weeks ;)

I look at my archives and there's definitely a lost book to this series xD a couple of missing seasons in this sitcom. maybe one of these days i'll sit down and recollect. not without some help from my friends' blogs probably.

hahahaha one huge segment prolly would depend entirely on my own memory - haaahhh that shitty period xD

not all shitty maybe

so i ended up in infantry xD

did too well in my coy.

And i decided, wen life hands you lime, make damn good lime juice and offer it to someone who needs some. Probably could do some good to my men as an infantry sergeant hahaha. AND I GET TO GO TAIWAN. lol.

HELLO OH OH OHHHHHHHHH.

sigh i'm such a crybaby sometimes.

life's so much different than just a couple months back.

Previous couple of days made it difficult for me to turn a blind eye to my flaws.

agh much to say. xD tomorrow maybe.

I look back and find that really really tiny things make me frown a lot. My take-away is sometimes having a sense of justice is really not as important as a sense of forgiveness or i dunnow, understanding? Makes me wanna review my policy of nudging rule-breakers in public while i commute (yes i do that sometimes). MUST. CONFORM! BIG BROTHER IS WATCHING. HHahaha. right? right? No not really. See this is why i have an irrational fear of pregnant women commuting.

Somehow they're not exactly exempted from the rules but if nudge then i may kill their baby. (is this an analogy for something? thinking... thinking... THINKINGG...! No it isn't haha i really do feel that way) okay no this is a joke. I just find that pregnant women shouldn't commute because it really leaves the baby hanging precariously. its like putting a glass of water with a goldfish in it at the edge of a table.

DIGRESSION.

Bah. okay i'll just tell the stupid story. I cried at the end of my 3-day field camp because of some stupid thing... in front of the whole company no less (though i had camo on and only ppl who paid attention could see... nevertheless - ).

The stupid thing was:
When field camp began i voluteered to be Mr. Signaller. which meant carrying the dumb thing for the whole field camp. Then what the frack another section's signal set broke and swapped their's with mine because of a bunch of words that when put together formed the reason I eventually carried a broken signal set around for the rest of the camp.

Then at the end of the camp there was the routine equipment check and the SM found the signal set i was carrying faulty and fucked me for it. HARD. (here's the part i exaggerate the effing a little bit so it justifies my frustration). I didn't feel responsible for any of the shit because i was being effed because the other section didn't report THIS broken signal set and took MY WORKING signal set to use.

yala fine. i'm sensitive. i spill water from my eyes easy. I am aware of many other embarrassing encounters similar to this. don't ask.

SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH