This whole shitty thing brought me closer to my buddies, which i never thought was possible.
Seriously.
I'm back on my feet now. i guess. There are lingering feelings but i have the support from my brothers. Knowing they're there makes me want to bulldoze through any obstacle, just so we can watch the wreck burn together, and then talk about it and laugh. Which they did so well last night.
Its when things start changing so rapidly that we try to find constants in our lives. I think this whole thing came up because i looked the wrong way for something constant. It was the wrong way for now at least.
I think we're all agreeable change is frightening, but that's what we do. We change to benefit most from a new environment. Our friends remind us of who we are so we keep what's important. I see that now, more than i have before. Picking up new aspects of who we will eventually become is inevitable. I mean we can't stay the same person forever. I know i've always said "no way in hell i'm changing" but i've come to realise that i don't want to be this person forever. Not totally change, but improve on myself at least. To moderate this change, something like tweaking the moral compass, i have the help of my brothers.
The people we meet truly make us who we eventually become. I know i'm going to be a fckawesome person.
Study hard.
