Today was an interesting day and it deserves a song:



haha i used to like this song and i figured out today that i still do! DON'T JUDGE ME.

I thought about it, and i have concluded that change is inevitable.

like you know people sometimes say things like "ouhp waelll back to square 1."
Technically though it shouldn't be square 1, but maybe something like square (0, 0, 0, 1) - x-axis, y-axis, z-axis and time-axis hahaha. If time is perpetually moving forward, square 1 shouldn't exist anymore if you think about it. So there's no particular situation that you can be in for any longer than a split second.

Another thing i've been thinking about is people's presence in time. Like what people regard as the "now" in the timeline that's somewhere in their mind's eye. I have a really narrow definition of "now". e.g. say this bracket with dotted lines in it represents my whole life from start to finish i.e. all the way till i don't exist anymore.

burth(-----------------------------------------------)ded

my perception of now which probably affects my urgency and tendency to be sentimental is would probably be represented on the timeline within sq. brackets something like this:

burth(-----------------------------------------------)ded

see it? no? lemme zoom in for you.
burth(---------[-]------------------------------------/...ded

hahaha i'm saying that maybe i should be more forward looking and be more uneasy about my A's and not do stupid shi* like this. Also maybe a little more sentimental about what's gone on before.

Cheers!