I'm not saying that to say that no one is reading this blog cos i know some people do haha. All i'm saying is:
talking to yourself is perfectly fine and maybe even healthy hahaha

I've always been trying to reject little changes around me all this while even when i say that accepting new things is good i don't always have that mentality in application.

6 years ago i was in sec one and i was awkward around all the new people around me and i don't know why but there's this stress to be above everyone in my acads. Then four years later i make good friends with so many people and the pressure to do well isn't so... uh i can't find the word for it. harsh? isn't so apparent?