Oh noooo. I'm losing my positive willpower! Optimism... FADING! AGHHH! Need Milo. Actually I can't really tell if I'm really tired, or really unhappy, or really tired and unhappy. So maybe I'll just go to sleep first and get back to you in a couple of hours.

Ugh this morning something happened that almost made me flip. Like a switch. A very angry switch. Like, "CLICK-KAPOW!" But I didn't, because if I did, you probably wouldn't be able to find NYJ anymore. Then again it was probably my fault. All I really did was tell them (uhhhhh apparently the exco of class I'm not even sure if that exists at all actually) that I'd rather opt out of the "march baby" b'dae bash. And the supposed CT rep came up to me and said, "Huuahaha look at me I'm the CT rep and I say you should let us throw you a b'dae bash so I can take credit for it and people will like me more for helping the disabled/borderline autistic i.e. you! SO I'm going to have to have a word with you later." Okay that wasn't what she said but it was somewhere along those lines. I hope I've aggravated any of my civics class people enough in the para to maybe indicate that you're reading my blog. And maybe that you are outraged that I put words in your mouth that you might not have spoken, and disappointed that I think that way. I understand how you feel (maybe) and I don't take my words back!

What ticked me off was the part where she said, "I'm going to have a word with you later." There was this very dramatic scene in my head where I spit in her face and stormed off, but that never happened because the tutor was sitting right in front of us so I smiled as nicely as I could manage and walked off. Probably looked like a rock smiling at her because rocks don't smile too well.

Also I've already covered my first event for photog, and already I'm starting to feel a little bit uneasy with the teacher-in-charge of the CCA. She seems waaaayyyy to nice just for the sake of being good to newbies. And I'm hesitant to take up photography her photography assignments. On the one hand, A levels is no where near at this point in time, and I probably should do my best to fill up that blank portfolio of mine, but on the other hand I seem to recall being in a similar situation just two years back. To make things worse, this guy called William in photosoc is so much more high profile than I am right now, if I don't do anything, I'm going to sink into the background of the CCA, and there goes my exco pos in photosoc.

I'm scared. Shizz. Planning planning planning planning planning.

I'm so tired too.

Yeah as you can see from the first couple of paras the "friends in class" thing ain't going too well hahaha. My brain isn't wired to be sociable. I remember flaring up at some classmates during PE. It was just a little but it's obvious to them now that perhaps I'm a little to temperamental for my own good. I never remembered making friends to be such a pain in the arse. I'm so tempted to say, "I hate people." now but I'm quite sure that's not true. I hope.

To top it all off, my foot hasn't fully recovered yet, and shows no sign of recovering any further. Despite being able to run again, my foot still hurts at certain angles. I'm going to see the doctor this weekend if I can find the time. I've got a bad feeling about this injury. Something tells me I shouldn't be running around if my foot is still pwned.

Yeah this week wasn't such a good week. So far. Well you can't have a good week if you've haven't had a bad one. Things are looking up! Though I'm still waiting for face-plant Fanny and jackhammer Jane to shut their pie holes, and for god's sake wear a paper bag to school. HAHA that gives me an idea of what to get you for your b'dae. See I'm being very vague for the sake of my good friends. Of course I've got certain people in my head. BUT I doubt these people read my blog. So if you're here and you're reading this, don't feel bad because it's probably not you. And laugh, because if you feel good, tag and I'll feel good too. Note to Friends from VS: You guys are definitely still my sole pillar of support. Keep tagging so I know you're still there. It took a long 4 years to make friends like you guys. Aww man i'm tearing. Sorry emotional moment... Okay done. That was new.

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