Yeah, my blogging frequency goes up whenever I'm frustrated or stressed out. It helps to know that you're not burdening anyone in particular with your worries, and just broadcasting to the general reading community (2-3 people) to make myself feel a little better.

Yeahhhhh well. Sucks to not do well. Let me share my solo-self-advertising experience. First was SAJ. I went in to the GO to see if I could meet the principal. My heart was thumping so quickly, I'm pretty sure I felt it cramp up a little. And the clerk blew me off with a very steenky face. The principal was "busy, very busy" *no eye contact*. Battle hardened, I went on to look for the teacher-in-charge of the photographic society armed with my arsenal of pictures and school publications that I have contributed to. I met up with the teacher in charge and went on to advertise myself. Then she cut me off halfway through my rehearsed introduction and said she couldn't help me. Man, was that disheartening. Suddenly she decided to take a look at my portfolio when she said she couldn't help. She spoke to me about the ways I could try to get into the school and reemphasized how she was unable to guarantee a space for me in the school.

AJ was no different. The teachers simply can't do anything until the results are out. And they always try to sound as nice as possible. I really cannot decipher what message their trying to convey. On one hand they say they can't help. On the other, their asking for your contact and noting down your name. How the hell am I supposed to make a decision? WTHF. Wish they would just give it to me straight. Like, "Don't put us as your first choice because you most probably won't get in." Yeah duh, teacher's are supposed to promote their school. But I really don't understand why they have to be so... undecided. Makes me undecided too. Agh the damage has been done. Form submitted. Yay me. Had something else to say but forgot.

Head hurts, wrists hurt, calves hurt, raw wound hurts, elbow hurts, neck hurts, eyes hurt, quality time with friends (in and out of the house) totally worth it! Disappointed that we won't be seeing each other too often for much longer.

AGHHH I'M SO PISSED. SHOULD HAVE STUDIED HARDER. AHHHHHH. !@#!@$!@$!@$%!@#@!