This is by far the first picture I've taken this October. Okay, exclusive of the pictures I take for the school.

October's rain is so wonderful. Really, I mean it always sorta rains heavily when I'm inside, but when I'm outside, it either subsides to a soft drizzle, or stops completely. I love the smell after the rain, it's similar to the smell of dew in the morning. Don't know why. Doesn't everyone? I think I like it reminds me of what happened in the past few years, most of the memories especially vivid from this year.

I'm feeling a little moody now. I ticked off my mom yesterday and haven't spoken to her since. I was just being really childish lah. Come to think of it, this year is the year that I've ticked of my mom for the most number of times. This is also the year that many relationships between me and my seniors, or me and my teachers, broke. Now, I'm not exactly sure if they did or not, but I'm quite sure they did. Or maybe it's just my brain playing tricks on me.

What I do know, I shan't say, assumptions may hurt people. That's one thing I learned not to do, from my mom.

I still remember just last year, school was so much more of a homely place than anywhere else. I guess things change huh. It could just be me lah, I've changed, so my perception changes, I see things differently.

As much as I would LOVE to blame my bad grades on my CCA, I don't do much for it anyway, even though I'm constantly saying that I do, well, I don't, I procrastinate, a lot.

I'm going to try to not get too fat-headed when saying this, but teachers, friends and my parents seem to see potential in me. I honestly don't. Or is that just and excuse to not work so hard anymore.

Okay this post is getting to lengthy and whiney. And I need to bathe!